Brain Trust

 There had been so much change in the past few years. That placeholder job was short lived I learned that job path was not right for me and gave me respect for housekeepers.

After that there was a move and two new positions in the time from of a year in that area. I was residential staff in a children’s treatment program and covid started during that position. Then I transitioned to a case  manager position. I had about three full months of cases by myself before we moved states and I started a similar job.

We packed and moved both me and my husband started new jobs and my kids started new school and daycare. I have an awesome right hand person at work. I miss the person terribly and am anxiously awaiting her return from maternity. The past 2.5 months have been stressful. I had two cases break open back to back. The first one at the end of may which I had been on top of everything in may. The second one at the beginning of June and it backed me up that month. 

This experience had me struggling because I was swamped with my position at work. On top of that I have an internship I am doing hours for and my family to balance with everything. I started to question my ability to do everything. I felt like I was loosing my mind. Some times I still feel as though I am loosing it.

I feel like I really need some self care.

Reflection

  

I came across this and almost started crying. I have been feeling so far away from my faith and spirituality. Once I read this I realized that as much as during the difficult past two and a half months that I had at work the above prayer was true. So many times I felt as if I just wanted to walk away from the job I was doing. As I read this I realized that God gave me the strength to push through and stay during the tough times. He even gave me the strength to continue to return day after day when I was exhausted, drained both mentally and physically.

Each time I look back up at that prayer it nearly brings tears to my eyes. I know I still need to draw even closer to god because my patience with my family is null since I use it all day with my clients.